| Location | Leeds W Yorkshire |
| Age | 2 months |
| Cause of Death | Cot Death/Sudden Infant Death Syndrome |
| Date of Birth | 18/09/2006 |
| Date of Death | 01/12/2006 |
| Visitors | 27,272 since 17/01/2008 |
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UPDATE PLEASE READ---
Sorry ive not been lighting candles and if i have missed your angels birthday or Angel day its just
my laptop had to go in for repair and i wasnt able to get onto site via my computer.Thank you to
everyone who has lit candles and left messages/poems etc it means a lot to me thank you.
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IF YOU HAVE A SPARE MOMENT PLEASE MAY YOU LIGHT A CANDLE FOR MY FRIENDS BROTHER ALLAN ROBINSON WHOS
PAGE IS LISTED IN MY GARDEN IT WUD MEAN A LOT TO HIS SISTER THANK YOU
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Jayden was born 18th september 2006 weighing 7 pounds.
Sids (sudden infant death ) took jayden from us on the 1st December 2006.. just 10weeks old later =(
Jayden has two big sisters and now a bay sister who is double of our gawjus baby boy.
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At sixs weeks of age he want for his six week check-up when the docter
thought she had found a heart mermer and he had not been gaining weight very Wel. Then two week
later we got a letter 4 him to go see a pedatitricion we took him the week after when she told us
they was no heart mumer. She gave Jayden a check up and thought with Jaydens symptons he may have
c.f and also wanted a stomach scan doing. We took jayden that day for a chest xray and blood
test.Jayden had always made a funny noise when he breated and some days struggled a little and not
gained much weight even though he would take full 8oz bottles. We then what home and a week later
got a letter for him to go have a sweat test which is to see if he had c.f this was for the 12th of
December then on the first of december he had been happy all day seemed to be better then ever
before. On the 1st December late evening Jayden was settling down he and was smiling away at me i
then what to lock door a two min job when i returned upstairs i moved jayden and noticed he was not
breathing started cpr while i was in a painc i ran for the phone and called an ambulance it seemed
to take ages even though it wasnt i was giving Jayden mouth to mouth and notting was happening not
a sign that it was working so then i ran to the lady nxt door for help as i counld not find keys i
opened window and jumped though. She came running and also tried mouth to mouth while i phoned my
parents they came and my mam ran to end of road were a paremedic lived he came stright round and
took over the cpr with all his equtiment he had in his reponse car. The paremadics then turned up
with a doctor they worked for a few mins on him in the house. I didnt know what to do i was still
screaming at them to get him to breath the next thing i know is we were in bk of ambulance on way to
lgi hospital were they rushed him into resus. A nurse then took us to a family room and stayed with
us and tryed to calm us down. After about a hr the doctor came in and knelt on the floor i could
tell by the way she looked at me with a tear in her eye that it was not good news she told me that
Jayden was not responding and they was notting more they cud do. I could not get my head round what
i was been told i rang my dad to tell him as they were still at house looking after my older
children my dad then got to hospital. We then had a vicor come in and ask if we wanted Jayden to be
blessed we agreed. Then because Jayden had died so suddenly and unexpected the police came out to
hospital were we were asked to go though what had happend we had to stay at hospital till cid had
removed what they need from are home. We got to leave hospital at 6am six hrs later. We went to stay
at relatives as i cudnt face going back to house. The coroner rang the next day to say a post mortum
would have to been done Jayden had is post mortum do on the tues at sheffiled childrens we had to
wait six days for the results they then rang bk the week after but they cud not find a reason for
his sudden death so they said it left the cause of death as Cot death / Sudden infant Death and that
they had taken blood and tissue to be tested but we wud have to wait a bit longer for them results
weeks past when we got a call saying they was notting showing on the blood test the small windpipe
tissue showed a small apnormalite but that wud not of caused his sudden death. We then had to wait
ten mth for the inquest when the coroner told us the only cause he cud give us was cot death /
sudden infant death as he showed all the hall marks of a coth death baby but that leaves me and all
his family with no answer as they do not know what causes cot death/sudden infant death. This is why
iam trying to raise as much money as i can for the F.S.I.D in hope that one day they can tell me why
he died. Also to Thank the F.S.I.D Conni care programe which has helped me so much when his little
sister were born they gave her an aponea alarm and they give us so much support by weighing her and
keeping a close eye on her.
Jayden has loads of family who miss him soo much.. and we love him to bits..
Rest In Peace Jayden
Missing you Baby Boy
Love All Your Family xxxxx
Thank you for everyones support it means a lot to us.
The Pit of Grief
The day my child died, I fell into the pit of grief. My friends watched me struggle through daily life; waiting for the person I once was to arise from the pit, not realizing 'she' is gone forever.
The pit is full of darkness, heartache and despair; it paralyzes your thoughts, movements and ability to ration. The pit leaves you forever changed, unable to surface the person you once were.
Some of my pre-grief friends gather around the top of the pit, waiting for the old me to appear before their eyes, not understanding what’s taking me so long to emerge. After all, in their eyes, I’ve been in the pit for quite sometime. Yet in my eyes, it seems as if I fell in only yesterday.
Not all of my pre-grief friends are gathered around the top of the pit. Some are helping me with the climb out of the darkness. They climb side by side with me from time to time, but mostly they climb ahead of me, waiting patiently at each plateau. Even with these friends I sometimes wonder if they are also waiting for the pre-grief me to magically appear before their eyes.
Then there are the casual acquaintances, you know the ones who say 'Hi, how are you?' when they really don't care or really want to know. These are the people who sigh in relief, that is my child who died and not theirs. You know ... the 'better them, than me' attitude.
My post-grief friends are the ones who climb with me, side by side, inch by inch, out of the pit of grief. They have no way of comparing the pit climbed to the pre-grief person I once was. You see, they started at the bottom of the pit with me. They are able to reassure me when I need reassurance, rest when I need resting, and encourage me to move forward when I don't have the strength. They have no expectations, no memories and no recollection of how I 'should' be. They want me to get better, to smile more often and find joy in life, but they also accepted the person I’ve become. The 'person' who is emerging from the pit.
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Love you loads
Mummys missing you babes cant believe you will be three soon wish you were here to celebrate it with us all.Not sure what to do for you this year wud be easyer if you were here and you could tell me. Hurts not having you here to watch grow.I do hope they is a heaven and you get to celebrate there.Not a min of a day passes when you aint on my mind. Love you so much and always will.Sending you big hugs with loads of love stay close to us all babes xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Don't Mourn For Me
Mother, please don't mourn for me;
I'm still here, though you don't see.
I'm right by your side
each night and day
and within your heart I long to stay.
My body is gone but I'm always near
I'm everything you feel, see or hear.
My spirit is free,
but I'll never depart
as long as you keep me alive in your heart.
I'll never wander out of your sight--
I'm the brightest star
on a summer night.
I'll never be beyond your reach--
I'm the warm moist sand
when you're at the beach.
I'm the colorful leaves
when fall comes around,
And the pure white snow
that blankets the ground.
I'm the beautiful flowers
of which you're so fond--
The clear cool water in a quiet pond.
I'm the first bright blossom
you'll see in the spring;
The first warm raindrop
that April will bring.
I'm the first ray of light
when the sun starts to shine,
And you'll see
that the face in the moon is mine.
When you start thinking
there's no one to love you,
You can talk to me
through the Lord above you.
I'll whisper my answer
through the leaves on the trees,
And you'll feel my presence
in the soft summer breeeze.
I'm the hot salty tears
that flow when you weep
And the beautiful dreams
that come while you sleep.
I'm the smile you see on baby's face.
Just look for me, Mommy,
I'm everyplace !
(Author unknown)
LOVE ALWAYS ALISON XXXXXX
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Tributes For This Week
My computer is running very slow at the moment I will have to get it looked at so I will be back online A.S.A.P. I would like to take this opportunity to thank everyone for all you do for Christopher & I it is very much appreciated
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FOR MONDAY 31st August
Our thoughts are ever with you
Though you have passed away.
And those who loved you dearly
Are thinking of you today.
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FOR TUESDAY
Everyday in some small way
Memories of you come our way.
Though absent, you are always near
Still missed, loved and always dear.
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FOR WEDNESDAY
No farewell words were spoken,
No time to say goodbye,
You were gone before we knew it,
And only God can tell us why.
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FOR THURSDAY
We can't have old days back
When we were all together.
But secret tears and loving thoughts
Will be with us forever.
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FOR FRIDAY
Love Lives On
Those we love
Are never really lost to us –
We feel them
In so many special ways-
Through friends
They always cared about
And dreams they left behind,
In beauty that they added to our days...
In words of wisdom we still carry with us
And memories that never will be gone...
Those we love are never really lost to us -
For everywhere their special love lives on.
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FOR SATURDAY
If Roses Grow in Heaven
If roses grow in Heaven Lord
Please pick a bunch for me.
Place them in my loved ones arms
and tell them they're from me.
Tell them I love and miss them,
And when they turns to smile,
Place a kiss upon their cheeks
And hold them for a while.
Because remembering them is easy,
I do it everyday,
But there is an ache within my heart
That will never go away.
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FOR SUNDAY
Still With Us
Do not stand by my grave and weep
I am not there. I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow;
I am a diamond glint on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain;
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you awake in the morning hush
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circling flight.
I am the soft star shine at night.
Do not stand by my grave and cry.
I am not there...I DID NOT DIE.
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Thoughts Today, Memories Forever
Angela Christopher’s Very Proud Mum
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Sweet Dreams Jayden.xxxx
☆ Goodnight Precious Angel ☆
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Look at this little puppy..
Snoring and blowing ZzZz in heaven above
I bet it sleeps by your pillow
And watches you with love
The puppy is all so fluffy..
With a little button nose
Your puppy will always love you..
From your head down to your toes
Your puppy likes to be tickled..
On his little belly with lots of love
So look after your little puppy..
Precious Angel up above
copyright© Jackie Thomas 22/08/09
Dream a Little Dream
Stars shining bright above you
night breezes seem to whisper
"I love you"
Birds singing in the sycamore tree;
Dream a little dream of me.
Say "nighty night" and kiss me
just hold me tight and tell me
you'll miss me.
While I'm alone and blue as can be;
Dream a little dream of me.
Stars fading but I linger on Dear
still craving your kiss
I'm longing to linger till dawn Dear
Just saying this:
Sweet dreams till sun beams find you
sweet dreams that leave all worries behind you.
But in your dreams whatever they be;
Dream a little dream of me.
Stars fading but I linger on Dear
still craving your kiss.
I'm longing to linger till dawn Dear
just saying this:
Sweet dreams till sun beams find you
sweet dreams that leave all worries far behind you.
But in your dreams whatever they be;
Dream a little dream of me.
Sweet dreams till sun beams find you
sweet dreams that leave our worries behind you.
But in your dreams whatever they be;
Dream a little dream of me.
Dream a little dream of me.(Lyrics by Mamas & Papas)
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Tributes For This Weekend
FOR FRIDAY 21ST AUGUST
Grief Is Like A River
My grief is like a river,
I have to let it flow,
But I myself determine
Just where the banks will go.
Some days the current takes me
In waves of guilt and pain,
But there are always quiet pools
Where I can rest again,
I crash on rocks of anger,
My faith seems faint indeed,
But there are other swimmers
Who know that what I need
Are loving hands to hold me
When waters are to swift,
And someone kind to listen
When I just seem to drift.
Grief's river is a process
Of relinquishing the past,
By swimming in Hope's channels,
I'll reach the shore at last.
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FOR SATURDAY
To Those I Love And Those Who Love Me
When I'm gone, release me, let me go;
I have so many things to see and do.
Don't tie yourself to me with tears.
Be happy that we had so many years.
I gave you love.
You can only guess how much that
You gave me in happiness.
I thank you for your love you each have shown.
But it is time I travel alone.
So grieve a while for me, grieve you must;
Then let your grief be comfort by trust.
It's only for a little while we must part.
So bless the memories within your heart.
I won't be far away, for life goes on.
So if you need me, call and I'll come.
Though you can't see or touch me, I'll be near.
If you listen with your heart, you'll hear
All my love around you soft and clear.
And then when you must come this way alone,
I will greet you with a smile and a
"Welcome Home!"
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FOR SUNDAY
Tears
Tears are delightful expressions
Of happiness, sorrow, and love,
Made to release deep emotions,
A special gift sent from above.
When seeing sweet thoughts of a loved one
Midst memories of days of old,
A tear finds a cheek in the moonlight
As thoughts reach deep in the soul.
In moments of anger, frustrations and grief,
When happy thoughts flee like a thief,
Running away with our hopes and our cares,
A tear brings welcome relief.
If unwanted sorrow consumes us
And life seems so hard to bear,
With time a soul is healed,
Restored with the help of a tear.
Sun and beauty bring health to the soul
Through all of the days of our lives,
Deepest feelings of thanks are expressed
Through tears which appear in our eyes.
Be grateful for tears for their presence
Restores our most glorious thoughts
Of laughter, compassion and loving,
The most precious gifts of all.
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Thoughts Today, Memories Forever
Angela Christopher’s Very Proud Mum
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GODBLESS JAYDEN
Those we love remain with us
For love itself lives on,
And cherished memories never fade
Because a loved ones gone.
Those we love can never be
More than a thought apart,
For as long as there is memory
They'll live on in the heart..
Night Night.xxxx
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Sweet dreams precious Angel..
Go snuggle up tight
I will blow special kisses..
Just for you tonight
God Bless you precious Angel..
Now I shall say Night night
Watch over your family until morning light
Goodnight special Angel..
Sleep well until the morn
I will be back to light your candle..
First thing at dawn
copyright© Jackie Thomas 20/08/09.
GOODNIGHT SWEET ANGEL......
✫ A Special Star So Very Bright ✫
✫ It's Time For Me To Say Goodnight ✫
✫ So Close Your Eyes And Snuggle Tight ✫
✫ I'm Wishing You Sweet Dreams Tonight ✫
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